#20 - Falling Behind

I haven't written a single word on any writing project since November 30th.

I've thought about sitting down to write often. I had a goal to try and finish my first draft of my book by the end of December.

The problem is, I'm in one of those "off" moods. The farther I got into December, the more convinced I was that everything I've ever written is worthless. I don't know why I get in these moods.

The thing that's finally broken me out of it a little bit is that I got a new story idea that I'm pretty excited about. The problem is, I absolutely refuse to start another new project until I've finished the two projects I'm in the middle of right now. It's bad enough I let myself start a new book when I was already over 80,000 words into the first one, but to start another new one would be too much.

I also realized that the more I work on these books that I don't necessarily like right now, the more practice I'll get writing and actually finishing novels, and the more practice I get, the better my next book will be.

So, I pulled out my NaNoWriMo book this afternoon, dusted it off a little bit, and actually wrote a few words. I'm excited to be back in the writing mode and I'm going to try really hard to stay here.

Another motivation I have for finishing this book is that I just paid $20 for a session to meet with an editor at a national publishing house and I want to have this book ready to show him in March. It's time to put my nose back to the grindstone.